The sleepless writer.

So I write this post at 5:12 am on Friday May 20th 2011 for two reasons

1st
I simply can't sleep
2nd
the cause of my sleeplessness is due to a couple next door expressing their emotions to each other very loudly. I now know the name of my neighbors by the way.

This lack of sleep helps me with many things. I see situations in a different light. I write the best poetry I could ever write at this time. And minus the show of emotions that is going on next door, it is actually peaceful.

And so I begin,
" They just don't understand my reason, I transcend like seasons and scar these rappers like legion"- Rapper Jane Doe

The transitions from the bitterness of the cold to the kiss of the sun is very beautiful. The grass begins to grow, the trees are born again and the earth is breathing. I am caressed by the warm breeze and I don't want it to stop. I've noticed that people tend to wear their emotions,and lately I've been witnessing very vibrant emotions. All greens,reds, yellows, oranges, pinks. Very beautiful. Seasons change, spirits change. I believe that if there's a shift in any sort, many follow blindly in the hopes of finding a better self, for them and the people that they love. I also believe all change is good, whether its good change or a change that has a negative impact. Change shows that you are capable of feeling, to show that you are not dead inside. (And even if  it is a bad change something or someone or some nation is going to end that change and transform it to a positive one. i.e Libya) Being able to change is a good thing. My change is more identifying me to be a better me. Many people wonder at times, how I can speak with such rich vocabulary and then when they see my posts or my status updates they think I'm like a Neanderthal. I tend to separate my simplistic writing from my speech because I know when I need to be "Professional" Asha rather then simply Asha.  I think the only time that you will see a non simplistic writing from me is Essays. This frustrates me sometimes because I feel like I'm not being true to the people who read my writings and thoughts. But then again I think, " your not in school, why waste your time, say what you need to say and be out." So instead of saying things that might make it easier for the reader to understand I write what make sense to me, I write for myself. After all, it is my blog. I don't like to alter myself to make sure others understand. However on this road to identifying myself to be a better me, I will take that into consideration. I don't want to but I must.


"I transcend like seasons"
I want to be a better me.

Simply, Asha